Fix

Been away for a while. Sitting on my couch, watching the NBA Semifinals, and eating diner with my beautiful wife. I have had an epiphany (moment of clarity). I need to work on forgiving myself for things that happen in life. I'm way too hard on myself and it's not healthy.

So my mental and spiritual workout is to learn to let pain and horrible memories go. Like cleaning out my mental hard drive of the bullshit. I'm putting my body back in tip top shape, mentally I need to do it as well.

So, in closing next week, I'll let y'all know how it's going.

Namaste

Can I kick it?

So unless you live under a rock or not a follower of hip-hop music. A few days Malik Taylor aka Phife Dawg from A Tribe Called Quest passed away. Normally I would have said #rip on Twitter and moved on...

However Tribe has been a part of my life since I was a kid. 

As a awkward kid I loved ATCQ...they weren't talking that gangster shit and I looked up to these cats musically. It's was music that I could relate to, understand and vibe to. It was ATCQ, The Pharcyde and Arrested Development that evened out the mean streets gangster rap that flooded the airwaves. 

Once The Low End Theory was released it was a next level event for me. That record is absolutely amazing on multiple levels! It's a record that I still listen to to this day! It's one of those albums that will forever leave an indelible impression on my personality, mentality and musical tastes!

Now I'm an awkward adult and love ATCQ even more as a kid...they made 5 albums of amazing music that I hold dear to my heart. It's dare I say it...precious to me. It may sound juvenile but it's the truth. Some of the greatest music in hip-hop from 4 cats from New York. 

Rest in peace, Phife. 

Microphone check 1,2 what is this...the 5 foot assassin with the roughneck business...

Thinking...

I was commenting to a co worker about this attorney that I used to work for...Suvinder Aluwalia. Suvinder from my perspective was a bit tyrannical in his approach. He constantly had his paralegal leaving the office and tears and had no problem telling you that since he went to Harvard, he was better than you. 

So I made comments about this man that I used to work for...I didn't know him personally...I always have given him a wide berth, his reputation preceded him. 

For some weird reason I looked up the old law firm on their website and noticed that Suvinder wasn't listed. I'm thinking that he had his own practice by now and he was doing well. So I type his name in the Google search field and the first thing that comes up was his obituary. 

Suvinder passed away in October 2015 right before his 50th birthday, a heart attack had done him in. 

I instantly began to cry! I began reading all of the heartfelt sentiments and condolences to his family...realizing that I only saw one aspect of this man. I was also sad that a light was no longer burning brightly. It was prematurely extinguished and for a few minutes I didn't know how to deal with it. 

Just a reminder to live each second with passion and to the fullest. You never know when people you know or love will be taken from you. 

I like me...

For those that know me, I am incredibly self depreciating...to a fault. I have lived my life for many years feeling that I had no redeeming qualities and always expected the worst in every situation. Living with the mindset that if nothing was wrong, that was the happy moment in my life.

Well guess what...at 43 years old...that shit gets tiring fast. So today, while this is mostly for me, I'm going to let you in on a couple of things that I've realized that I like about me...

I'm a good musician, and have proved it on many occasions.
I've got a pretty good sense of humor.
My love for my wife and kids is unconditional.
I love skateboarding.
I have pretty damn good choices in music.

Believe me it's a work in progress but before I leave this earth I'm going to LOVE me!

Junk Food

I've grown incredibly weary with all of the bullshit in the media. This ever growing race war, everyone constantly offended over something yet unable to scurry from behind their keyboards to do any fucking thing about it, presidential candidates making my teeth hurt and waistband explain with lots of sugary promises that equal empty calories. It makes my head hurt, to try and get through a day with any shred of compassion is a daunting challenge! So in my thought process I might just mute it all…seriously it's hard enough to focus and maintain in this day and age without all of the extra garbage. 

I truly hope you find your filter…whatever you do to filter the noise and clear your head. Lots of meditation for me later today. 

Namaste

Today!

I'm grateful for the ability to walk outside and have the rain fall on my face! Namaste to all! #happy