Who you gonna call?

Who you gonna call?
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Who you gonna call?

Yummy candy

Yummy candy
Originally uploaded by deepsamurai

Yummy candy

Warpath!

Today I am on one, can't really explain! Just feel like no one listens or gives a rats ass! Best to stay out of my way...in the immortal words of Talib Kweli..."I'm on one"!

...catharsis...

OK, so as we all know I am no longer playing bass for This is My Curse, and while I was really upset about how it went down, I have begun to feel better about the situation. I am still not talking to John (Blaze) and Keely, nor haven't heard from either of them, and I doubt I will hear from them any time soon. These are 2 people that completely lied to my and drummer Richard about attending an awards show that Curse was nominated for in the category of "Best Rock Band", I was proud of the fact that we were nominated! However, that wasn't meant to be. John and Keely took it upon themselves to attend the show, walk the red carpet and perform without the bassist (me) and drummer (Richard). Put simply, when asked, John and Keely both told me that they weren't attending the show, due to personal problems they were facing and lack of funds! Then told our drummer (Richard) that the money wasn't turned in on time! Too greedy and attention whorish for the spotlight, they attended without us...when asked why we weren't in attendance, the answer was "replaced" and "shit happens"...not even the decency of a phone call! I could rant and rave about the bullshit that Curse went through in the year and a half I played with them. I will state that my inability to go on tour was probably a catalyst for my departure...(got a family, just not gonna get up and make my wife handle everything so I can play with a pair of people that obviously didn't respect me) So...at this point I am going to focus on my spoken word and writing, and being the best dad/husband I can be! I will return to music soon, It's in my blood, and I will never abandon it! It's the soul of who I am! ...as for John and Keely, your business acumen is nothing short of prehistoric, I'm the ex member, it doesn't really matter what I say...you'll continue doing what you do...just keep in mind you've been pushing this band for 6 years, yet haven't been close to the popularity you had with me, Richard and David! Take care, don't let old habits and behaviors bite y'all in the ass! Y'know...those that don't learn from history are DOOMED to repeat it! Corey (Geek, Gamer, Writer, Musician, and All Around Badass)

Compassion

Compassion for man…

…where has it gone, and why has gone the way of the dodo? My wife is telling me of a story of a man she heard screaming from her office window. Apparently the screaming continued for 5 minutes, after which, she looks out of the window to see a man on the ground surrounded by paramedics and police! This man was screaming (for help or otherwise) for five minutes…my wife heard from her 5th floor office window, yet people on the street level walked right past the guy and didn’t pay attention to him.

What has happened that we won’t even stop to see the issues with our fellow man? Have we as a society become so self-absorbed and jaded that we’ll walk right past a man on the street who’s in some sort of distress, and we won’t even stop to attempt to see if the person is ok?

This bothered me after my wife gave me the story, so tonight this is what I will meditate on. How can I be better towards my fellow man? Find a way to donate and give more passion and understanding to a world that desperately needs it!

Me

I love being different. In this day and age…while I’m overextended and hardly treading water..I have creativity, art and originality in spades!

I love to write, even when I don’t do it nearly enough, making music, something about a walking bass line just sends chills down my spine!

However with all this wealth, others try to steal that from me, by judging everything on my color and ethnicity!

I refuse to apologize for loving P-Funk as much as Slayer…I enjoy music, I enjoy a good movie…I’ll quote Smokey & the Bandit and Menace 2 Society!

I may talk of this topic frequently, mainly due to the fact that I constantly deal with it…damn near on a daily basis.

Most look at negative media and stereotypes to try to paint this picture of me, I just don’t like the paint they’re trying to use!

Instead of fucking with me, how about adding flavors and colors to your palette! In my world, vanilla just doesn’t cut it!

This world is too damn big to comfortably wear a label that does me no justice, that’s Kool-Aid Mr. Jones that I refuse to drink!

So, I’ll continue my life of bold sounds and vivid Technicolor, while you drink your daily dose of ignorance, it does your body good!

….and hopefully God willing when I get old, I’ll be able to transcend this bullshit and hopefully I’ll teach my son that your color doesn’t define you, but your heart and actions will! PRAY/LIVE/LOVE like it all ends tomorrow!

Pissed

Apparently due to the inability of my band members to hold down jobs or fuck, act like adults...This is My Curse is coming to an end! Well we had some good times, and some rough times, but it's all good in the name of rock! I will be looking to front my own project soon, just gimmie some time!

But to my former members, a few words!

David: Keep rocking bro, I hope you and Kelly keep rocking for a really long time, and I might call ya to jam!
Richard: Personally I love ya! Funny and can keep a mean rhythm! Everything you want will fall in place for you soon!
Blaze and Keely: Where do I begin! I love you both...however you two really need to figure some things out! Get it together! You're still family to me!

With that being said, I'm going to cook dinner for the family and get to writing!

One

time

...and how it marches on. Just turned 38 and still just as stubborn and young as always! It's amazing how my contemporaries embrace the age to settle down and just live...well fuck that! Getting further into my mountain biking, bass playing, even sucking down more cocktails than usual! 38 has been great so far! Let's do it!

ME

Let's strip away the status...VIP, gold, platinum, black card...living the lie that you are exceptional due to status! We are all animals on this planet, you're no better that anyone else and vice versa, yet you live in a fairy tale where you think you're better...truth is you're not.

Living and breathing in Vegas, status is everything...it defines who you are, where you can get access and who will socialize with you!

In my finite wisdom, I'm taking myself out of that game...I've seen the end results personally, professionally and socially, it's a twisted game that I don't wanna play anymore! I'm quite content and satisfied being just Me! I'm an animal on this planet just trying to survive my way...the only status I look for now is blessed and breathing.

This is My Curse w/Daisy from VH1!

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My stomach hurts…my stomach is full…but it’s my fault. I can only blame myself…I’m to blame for sitting at the table, dining with fools, charlatans, and the comfortably superficial! Gorging on the empty calories of bullshit, feasting on hollow sentiments and lies!

But I can only blame myself…

…after the first serving I should’ve excused myself from the table, but I persisted. I expected there to be a morsel of truth and substance.

Alas, not the case…

…so I continues until I’m swollen and can’t move, unable to make a rational decision to stop eating.

…I’ve had my final serving of nothingness today…

Blessed!

So, on the 11th of this month, I was rear ended at a stop light on the way home from work! Long story short, I was on the off-ramp of the freeway at a stop light when a Camaro slammed into me doing close to 50 miles per hour! The driver of the Camaro told me to drive away, then ran away from the scene, leaving his wrecked car in the middle of the street!

So there's the stress of dealing with insurance, pain in my neck from whiplash, probably having to purchase a new car, disrupting my life this way. Not really a disruption, just not the way I planned!

I'm hoping NHP can find the person that hit me, I'm not counting, just hoping that person gets what they deserve!

So at this point i'm waiting for the Geico rep to get here and take a look at my car! General consensus...it's totalled! I'll keep you updated (crickets) on how it's going!

MC Frontalot - Zero Day [OFFICIAL VIDEO]

Lately!

I know I haven't posted in a bit! I'd like to say I've been incredibly busy...truth is I haven't been so busy as much lazy! Let's see...for my anniversary, I went on an amazing cruise vacation with my wife that was nothing short of incredible! Still playing with This is My Curse, as were planning to play with Alien Ant Farm on the 25th of this month! Slowly climbing out of debt, trying to be a good husband/father...y'know...that old chestnut!

Life has been good and I promise that I'll post here more often!

Living Colour - Leave It Alone