bi polar

...if i could take a look at my mind a of late, you would see two very different sides. One side I imagine my soul sitting on a grassy plateau, pondering the questions of life in flowing robes, living in peace and harmony with all around me....then there's the other side. Smoke and fire everywhere as I stand in battle armor ready to confront and defeat anyone and anything that gets in my way! As much as I lean to the ghandi like side, the warmonger in me comes out every now and again. I don't like it, but it keeps me safe, letting people know when you have reached the point of no return!

The zen-like me will stare you down and politely tell you..."abandon all hope, ye who enter here." You get one warning, keep pushing and the warmonger will put you in your place! It's difficult to have these 2 sides coexist, but I do it daily. Guess I finally understand the old Suicidal Tendencies song "War Inside My Head"

June 3rd

...so my birthday was on May 31st, I turned 34. I don't feel different ust one year older, and on my birthday, I decided to have a friggin root canal done! What a way to celebrate.